Well first of all hi guys, its been months since I last posted anything so yeah, that. Anyways, I’m in one of those thinking moods, and because of Amanda Todd, and some other personal situations, I’m thinking about suicide, or more specifically, why do people commit suicide? what causes a person to decide that they no longer want to live, and to go against the very nature of preservation and kill themselves? I mean, I’ve had very dark times, and when I hear of the treatment of the victims in teen suicide cases I relate to their treatment, because its very similar, but there’s one key difference, I’ve never even considered suicide. When I got booted in the face and told I was worthless, I didn’t. When I was attacked with a log and injured, I didn’t. When one of the few girls I’ve ever had feelings for told me no girl would ever like me, and cut ties, I didn’t. But why? What’s the difference that has had me use these experiences to help me better myself, where others kill themselves? What, What, What is it?
My heart goes out to all the people who’s lives have been affected by suicide and attempted suicide, and to those contemplating it, please don’t. Someone cares about you, even if it seems as if noone does. You light up someone’s life even if you don’t realise it. Your mother, your brother or sister, friends, teachers, and even random people on the internet. Someone cares.
I just want to thank some people who don’t know they light up my life, and probably won’t read this: Alaska, Eden, Keanu, Mali, my brother, and my parents. Thanks.
Love you all :)
Damn, I almost failed on the first day…I was wondering why people resort to personal arguments when presented with facts? If someone is actually right then why just insult them? get over it and move on with your life. That is all.
Yeah I’ve said this before, but yeah I feel like I should be posting more written blogs. If I do get any followers here, I do video blogs everyday but its not the same. Maybe I just don’t write well I guess :P (Despite getting high marks in an English A-Level) Yeah you should check out my YouTube, but I will try to post daily…no promises :P Thanks guys (or the one follower I have :)
Its amazing isn’t it. I’m sitting in a psychology lecture theatre, and at the same time telling the world what I think about the world. I’m messaging a girl across the room on the phone when I could easily walk over and talk. I’m recording the lesson. I’m checking my schedule for the week. I’m researching on the web. I’m writing notes. And I’m doing all these different things one device, a device that is only 4 inches tall.
Being raised around this technology I rarely marvel at the sheer amazingness of what it can do. In the past you’d need multiple bits of technology, and even then it would be impossible to do it all at once.
So I just want to thank the designers and manufacturers, my grandma, and, most importantly, my parents, for making my life so much easier.
So yeah I wrote a song about the Friendzone, while trying to see how I could go with MIDI instruments to make natural sounding instruments…and I got this :D
I was just listening to Cars by Gary Numan (and btw does he look like Sheldon Cooper, or is it just me?) and it made me think of all the music out now, and don’t get me wrong I like listening to it (Ed Sheeran, Maverick Sabre etc.) but I keep thinking I don’t wanna make music that’s being made nowadays, I want sounds Like the Gary Numans, Adam Ants or David Bowies of the music industry. Hell I’d even settle for Mika. Yeah I know I COULD do it, and I probably will at some point anyway, but my point is will it be popular, is there still a market out there, or is it just me?
I was just thinking how its weird the way time changes, even with the way i talk to people. I used to spend all my time on the computer on like msn and stuff but now I do that all on my phone, I’m even doing this on my phone…i know this sounds stupid but it actually made me think.
My first song of the new year!